I'm Still Here (songfic)

I’m Still Here (songfic)
2P!HetaliaxReaderxBrothers Conflict

I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that's held in your arms.
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway…
You don't know me,
And I’ll never be what you want me to be.

(Name) had run away from her family the Asahina family, which are mostly thirteen brothers as mother was divorce and hardly came home to visit due to her work, and (Name) now lives with the Kirkland family as she changed her last to Kirkland as they adopted her. (Name) never told them about her life with her last family as she knew that it was her fault that one of the brothers left the family. Everyone tried to make her feel part of the family, but (Name) didn’t want any part of it as long as she starts a new life.

And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man..
You can't take me and throw me away.
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own.
They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.

One morning Oliver Kirkland, (Name)’s new dad came into the room as he said, “Hey, poppet, do you want to bake with me.” “Sure dad.” (Name) said as she pulls a fake smile as she follows her dad to the kitchen and her dad knew that she pulls another fake smile as he wished that one day she’d smile for real. They went into the kitchen as they started to clean the kitchen and then started to bake some cupcakes, but Oliver just wants her to smile for once. As they were baking, Jason, Michael, who is (Name)’s new brothers and François, who is (Name)’s second Dad; they came into the kitchen without them knowing in seeing how (Name) was doing. They could still tell that (Name) was still the same as Michael said, “I’m going to take her to work with me and she’ll probably feel better; maybe smile for for once.” “You know Michael that might work.” Jason said as François nodded his head and just then (Name) and Oliver finished baking the cupcakes. (Name) then goes to leave the kitchen as she doesn’t the three as she heads back to her room.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change?
They’re the ones that stay the same.
They don’t know me,
'Cause I’m not here.

Micahel went to (Name)’s room as he was in front of her door and he knocks on the door as he said, “Hey, (Name) it’s me Michael. Can I come in?” There was no answer as he said, “I’m coming in then.” Michael opens the door as he walks into (Name)’s room and he finds her sitting on her bed. Michael walks over to her and then sits on her bed next to her as he said, “Listen (Name) I know that you probably don’t want to do anything, but I was wondering if you want to come with me, and see of what I do at work.” (Name) doesn’t say anything at first and she then said, “Sure I would like to, Michael.” “That’s good to know. Now why don’t you get your stuff together and I’ll wait for you at the front door, okay.” Michael said as (Name) nods her head and Michael leaves the room as he closes the door behind him. (Name) starts to get her stuff together as she still doesn’t show her feeling still to anyone of her family members ever since that incident.

~Time Skip to Kuma and Jiro jumping at the screen~
(Name) had gotten her stuff together as she said her goodbyes to Jason, Oliver, and François as she leaves with Michael in seeing of what he does at work. Michael helps (Name) in getting into his truck as he calls for his pets Kuma the polar bear and Jiro the grey wolf. They both climb into the back of the trunk and Michael climbs into the driver seat as he starts it. Michael pulls out of the driveway and drives out with (Name), Kuma, and Jiro on board to the forest out of the city. As they arrived at the forest in which was about a two to four drive, Michael parks his car as he helps (Name) out of the truck as Kuma and Jiro jumps out of the trunk, and the two went on ahead. Michael then leads (Name) into the forest as Michael said, “Well (Name) you get to see of what I do for a living and that is catching the poachers; help take care of baby animals that lost their parents due to poaching.” (Name) was surprised by this and it wasn’t too long when suddenly a small baby moose came out of the bushes as (Name) didn’t know of what to do as Michael said, “Don’t worry ( Name) this is one of them that I saved from the poachers and it’s a baby girl.” “Sh-She’s so cute.” (Name) said as Michael felt that maybe she’d start smiling for real for once. (Name) slowly walks up to the baby moose as it smells her and starts to snuggle against (Name) as she actually laughs for once as the moose starts to licks her face. Michael smiles as he watches the moment and then his two pets returns with two poachers being carried by their collars. Michael walks over in taking care of business with the poachers.

After Michael took care of the poachers as they were both dead and Michael walks over to (Name) who was playing with the baby moose. Michael then smiles as he said, “(Name), it’s time to go.” “Oh okay, Michael, but can we come her again, please.” (Name) said as it surprised Michael as he said, “Sure, but you have to promise to smile like that more often.” Now it was (Name)’s turn to surprise by this as she then smiles for real a she said, “Yes.” “Good girl.” Michael said as he ruffles (Name)’s (h/c) hair.

After a week had pass of spending time with Michael, Michael takes them all back home, and when they arrived home. (Name) was the first to get out of the truck as she runs inside of the house as she said, “Daddy, I’m home.” Oliver walks out of the kitchen as he starts to cry in happiness and runs up in giving (Name) a hug as he said, “Welcome home poppet.” Oliver knew of what Michael did which was having (Name) meet one of orphan animals in showing her that she wasn’t the only that felt lonely. François and Jason came in as they smile in seeing (Name) smiling for once. François walks up to (Name) as he said, “Hey (Name), want to try and play a game of cards with me along with Uncle Roberto and Uncle Gillian?” “Yes I would like that, Dad.” (Name) said and Oliver said, “Poppet would like to make more cupcakes with me?” “I would like to do that, Daddy.” (Name) said and then Oliver leads (Name) into the kitchen as they start to make more cupcakes.


And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

After Oliver and (Name) finished baking, (Name), Francis, Uncle Robert, and Uncle Gillian played a few games of cards, Michael let (Name) in going with him to the forest in visiting the baby animals, and right now (Name) was in her room thinking of what Jason was going to do for her, but then she hears a motorcycle outside as she goes to the window in seeing Jason leaving on his motorcycle. (Name) starts to think that he was leaving her as she immediately runs out of her room as fast as she could, everyone that she passed by were shouting for (Name) in asking her of what’s wrong, but she ignores them as she runs out through the front door in think that it can’t be real in that Jason was leaving them.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change?
They’re the ones that stay the same.
They can’t see me,
But I’m still here.

(Name) continues to run as fast as she could in trying to catch up with Jason as she starts to cry as she started to believe that she was going to all alone again like last time she could remember it clearly as she was saying to herself, ‘No, no, no, no please don’t leave me again, please. You promised me Jason. Are you now going to leave me like Natsume did to me, too?” That day started to play back like it was just like yesterday as she falls to ground and cries.

They can’t tell me who to be,
‘Cause I’m not what they see.
Yeah, the world is still sleepin’,
While I keep on dreamin’ for me.
And their words are just whispers
And lies that I’ll never believe.

~Flash Back to several years ago in Asahina Family~
As (Name) was still asleep, she hears screaming and yelling going on through the house, and it was early in morning as (Name) climbs out of the bed in seeing Natsume packing the remaining of his stuff into his trunk of his car. (Name) was still in her (f/c) pajamas as she climbs out of the bed and runs out of her room. When she got to the living/dining room, she saw her older brother Subaru crying as the others try to calm him down, and (Name) knew that it means that he and Natsume got into another argument. So (Name) runs out of the living/dining as she runs out through the front door just as Natsume was already in the car, and he starts to drive away as (Name) starts to scream for him, but he continues to drive down the road as she falls onto the pavement and cries.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can they say I never change?
They’re the ones that stay the same.
I’m the one now,
‘Cause I’m still here.

~End of Flashback of a sound of a motorcycle~
(Name) continues to cry as she heard a motorcycle coming back as she looks up in seeing Jason’s motorcycle coming back and (Name) gets up as she still was crying. Then Jason stops his motorcycle right next to (Name) as he said in placing (f/c) helmet on top of her head, “Do you want to come for a ride, (Name)?” “Y-Yes.” (Name) said as she tries to dry her tears and then Jason said as he pulls (Name) into a comforting hug, “Hey, don’t worry (Name). I promise that I won’t leave (Name).” “Th-Thank you.” (Name) said as Jason pulls away and helps (Name) into the side cart that he install incase (Name) wanted to come along. Once (Name) was strapped in Jason climbs on his motorcycle, starts it up, and drives away as (Name) smiles; is having fun with her new family as she knew that even though her memory of her pass family were still there. She now knows that she can make new memories with her new family as she was still here with her family.

I’m the one,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.  

<THE END>